The Influence of a Positive Attitude

I admit it, I am freaking out. This weekend my job is changing, it's the same job, but done in a completely different way, on a new system. Emails of last minute changes and updates are flooding my inbox. Systems that are supposed to be up and working are not accepting my passwords. My brain is on overdrive and I'm sick of waking up in the night with that feeling of dread.

I attended training the first two weeks of November and have completed continuous training on a weekly basis since, but I am not prepared and have little hope of remembering all I've learned.

For me, this is huge. I am made up of equal parts perfectionism and OCD- a deadly combination on a good day. I resist change and I am not ready to give up being efficient, fast, and good at my job. I don't want to revert back to feeling like a newbie, making mistakes, and dealing with unhappy and impatient customers.

I have been in a negative downward spiral and have even considered quiting. Thanks to the financial goals we've made- I know this is not an option.

Today I went to lunch with my friends from work, we try to meet every couple of months to catch up and share work related stories (in this industry, there are always good stories). I am grateful to have met these women, they were supportive and kind as we learned our job together the first time, and have been good friends ever since. They are as nervous and frustrated as I am, and yet, they seem to possess a belief that in time they will learn and become adept in their positions. They are dealing with the unknowns, and the things they have no control over with patience and grace. They encouraged and reminded me they would be just an email or phone call away.

So... lunch became a therapy session, complete with Diet Coke and chicken tacos. I am blessed to have others around me who can see beyond the moment and have faith that in time, all will work out. I am blessed to have support, good friends, a husband who spends hours working on my new software, and if nothing else... a day off tomorrow. ;-)

Friendship + Red Shoes= Happy Me

Many have asked if I got my red shoes. I did, thank you. I didn't even have to drive hours to get them. I had a friend who came through for me. She drove to the store, she paid for my shoes, and she brought them to me, in the snow. Yes, I paid her back and promised future favors and errands I would run on her behalf, but still, I owe her huge.

This experience and many others like it have made me once again realize and appreciate the fact that I have been so blessed in my life with the choicest of friends. I think I have a gift for finding women who are smart, talented, caring, spiritual, supportive, generous, funny- I could go on and on, to be my friends. Our Heavenly Father blesses us in individual ways with those things we need to survive our Earthly existence. I am so grateful He knows how much I need each of you.

And, I am grateful for cute shoes too.